Creating a piece on canvas with paint, well used brushes, comfortable colors and that certain dose of inspiration that wills you to leave dishes undone and laundry in a heap….that is a moment that can stretch out to a couple of days. Life will rear up around you and insist on some attention. You will reach a point, maybe more than once, when you can step back and take a wide look at what came out of you. There will be fits of anger swirled there and jags of crying pushed into the corners. The finish is always a ‘top coat’ of hope, a reminder that life requires some resiliency to function with you in it.
Create a life with people,known for as many years as you are. Choose comfortable surrounding, maybe the best you can do under the circumstances. Recognize that your passion for being in your own life are rooted in desires that make you want to bag it all and run off. That’s not a bad thing, it’s the heart listening for the wild cries. Art and those drives will rear up around you and insist on some attention. You will reach a point, maybe more than once, when you step back and take a wide look at where you are and who you are doing life with. You will take note of every fit of anger, all those long jags of crying, the pain of growing, the sheer terror of separating, the fears of being pushed into corners. A life lived will shine with hope and will remind you that your impulses keep you functioning.